oh gosh

I just ate an expired bagel. Freaking Sara Lee needs to learn how to write expiration dates. It said 22 FEB 02, and all the time I didn't even see the 02. Now I have no idea what the hell it means, but like, a raisin was weird (I picked it out) and now I feel like I'm going to die overnight.

Anyway, I lied about yesterday. It wasn't so great. I honestly feel like I have nothing to look forward to now. Awards ceremony is on Thursday night, but I get the feeling I didn't do as well as I hoped, so I really don't want to face it. My mom is perpetually angry at me, too.

I'm very scared about college decisions, but I get the feeling that even if nowhere else accepts me, even if I want to transfer from ELAC (it'd only take me a year with all the credits I've racked up), my parents would send me to Riverside. I'm not sure how I feel about Riverside, because I never imagined myself there.

Only a week and some days left until decisions from MLK Scholarship come. I really want to go to Ithaca College. The thing is, my parents don't know yet, because whenever I try to talk to them they don't listen, and then whenever I'm freaking busy they keep asking me what I'm going to do with my life. I wish UCR would stick to the regular timeline, because my dad keeps asking me, every freaking day, whether I got another acceptance letter, and I keep telling him, every freaking day, that there is still a month left.

Today was a boring day. Everything is so easy to me. Except maybe Econ. We've caught up to the end of Micro, which I have never looked through. LOL I'll start studying tomorrow, promise. Zapata approached me and said he definitely wanted me to participate in capital markets, and then he slipped out that he didn't think I was going to participate in Econ Challenge. Haha, I think we both know that I'm not as strong as the previous David Ricardo's, but I swear I will do my best! I wish I kept in last year, because that would've been killer on my resume for Business School, but then again, this would be, too :)

I love leaving right after Econ, it makes me feel like I have so much time. But this is just for the week, I know I'm going to try to help out with all the teachers next week. It was pouring and there was thunder by the end of fifth, and I ran the fifteen meters to the cafeteria and that rain was falling so hard. My dad picked me up, so I had to run through the walkway at the side of the school, and there were literally inches of rain washing down those steps! Crazy. I hate rain, but I definitely love the thunder C:

My webcam broke. Microsoft is so freaking crappy I swear. Everyone knows their products aren't worth it -- the webcam is supposed to be $60 but Danny got it off Club Bing. I searched around and there were a lot of complaints about the audio. I finally found a site that had instructions on how to fix it, but I'm going to have to reassemble the whole thing :[ sigh. Club Bing currently has a mic, but I don't really think it's worth it since I plan on getting a labtop later anyway. But yeah, no webcam = no communication with Nisha, Janet, Kevin, etc. :[

Speaking of Janet, I feel really bad. I was very insecure yesterday because it seemed like everyone was getting the supplement for UCLA and I wanted to check to what extent it was sent out because I was freaking out. I hope I didn't scare her or anything. I'm just dumb like that sometimes.

My little brother is very funny. I think he's the best kid in the world haha. I told him before that if anyone picked on him, he should tell me, because I was bullied like hell in sixth grade and I had to face that alone. And then he has this pink pencil he found, and a kid in his class keeps telling him it isn't his and Alex gets so mad. LOL. He's like "MAN I WANTED TO PUNCH HIM!!!!" and then he begs me to tell Andrew so we both can go and beat up that kid. Haha, I'm teaching him violence is not the answer and yet he's such a dude! :P

Homework for today:
[x] CALC - pp457 - 5-7, 8, 13, 14, 17, 18 (thnx to andeh :p)
[x] PHYX - Work problems
[x] STATS - moar normal distribution practice
[x] ECON - just bring ch 23 & 24 tomorrow



Love,
Maggie